All In My Head

Dazed and Confused. Lost in my own mind. No Control... Thinking... of what? God only knows.
Am I finally going insane??? Maybe...
I just wish I could take my brain out of my head and put it on the table next to me and just tell it to 'Chill!'.
My head is about to explode!
Am I depressed? or just being stupid? Nothing makes sense anymore. I wanna get high. So high that I just can't feel anything.
So many questions but no answers. I'm going crazy. Make it stop!
I need help. Am I too scared to ask for it? or just too proud? What's wrong with me?????
Issues... Can't cope... It's like a f*#^ing long a$$ nightmare that never ends.
So messed up... Wish I didn't care. So many memories and flashbacks.
So much pain. Where is it all coming from?
"Come on.. Write down what you feel."...... I can't do it anymore